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0851 But because the part of the leg had a tinge of red, I could be relieved a little. Today, she could stand with her two legs and sit on her chair as usual. - 076
0852 Friday, December 5, 2003 I woke up Chie and Ann at eight. As soon as she got up, she stood on my bed. Though I felt she is getting better since yesterday, she was still feeling the pain. She immediately got on my shoulder and was on my shoulder until the evening. She was greatly shocked. - 077
0853 The shock seems not to disappear from her yet. She is afraid of going away from me. Like yesterday, I gave food, water and an apple to her till 3:30 PM. I changed food of the baby bird to the usual food in the afternoon. - 078
0854 She got well at about 4 PM. She went away from me, and tried to step into the receptacle of her bath which is near my bed. Because she has not recovered completely yet, I removed the receptacle. - 079
0855 But after that, she was putting her head in the water of the receptacle of the drinking water. She recovered on the third day. I take my hat off to her for "her effort to live".
0856 I thank God. And I thank everything in this world. She was waiting for me on the usual table when the time of her going to bed came. She was hurrying me, shouting, "Jijiji, Jijiji " as usual. - 081
0857 As if anything did not happen. I was very tired. However, because she considerably showed the symptom of recovering, I said to her, "Thank you". She showed a surprised expression to me. - 082
0858 Monday, January 26, 2004 I took a nap on the bed, with the television on, for about two hours from 10 AM. Chie was playing on my belly and shoulder. She understands my feelings and my words. I also understand her feelings and her words. When I talk to her, she hears it hard and answers me. - 083
0859 She talks to me, and I answer it. Except when she eats food and drinks water, she is always around me, though she sometimes goes away from me to enjoy herself.
0860 She is in my shoulder and arm or is playing near my foot. She is very quiet when she is together with me. She is sometimes singing her song like a human is humming in a small glad voice. For me, the present time might be the happiest in my life. - 085
0861 For living and for love, she issurprisingly robust. Even if she might die and the rival's body might be larger than she, she goes toward her rival in love. - 086
0862 She seems to be deciding that she is together with me, whatever may occur. I am also the same as her. To live together with her, I decided to retire early. I think that my decision was not wrong. - 087
0863 Thursday, May 13, 2004 Chie's physical condition is bad. She is swelling her body. Though she tries to eat food, she cannot make her throat pass it. She can hardly drink water. - 088
0864 Though she loves tomatoes very much, she doesn't try to eat at all. She doesn't drink water, and she is replenishing water by eating the apple. - 089
0865 She is looking for the food in the room, to satisfy her hunger. She is the same as the sparrow that is alive outside. I have never seen such behavior of her. - 090
0866 Because she knew she can't swallow the usual food, she is looking for food, excluding her usual meal place. However, when she became considerably hungry, she reluctantly picks up a seed of "Awadama(a kind of millet)" from usual food, and is eating. She seems to be able to eat hemp seeds, too. - 091
0867 She can hardly utter voice. She can do only greeting in a small voice, before she sleeps. I think having caught cold is the cause. I am also catching cold and I am in the state of hoarse voice. - 092
0868 Because her throat is in the state blocked, she can hardly utter voice. Her throat cannot let food and water pass easily. Though she tries to eat, she throws up everything she has eaten. - 093
0869 She has an experience which caught a cold once and was not able to utter voice. It is the first experience of us that food is not able to pass her throat. She bathed immediately before sleeping. I think that my way to treat her after bathing was no good. - 094
0870 Today has ended because of only her food search. I was anxious about the temperature of her sleep place on carpet with thermostat of nighttime. So I decided to put the thermometer. - 095
0871 Friday, May 14, 2004 Like yesterday, she cannot utter voice. Her body is swelling out a little. It is the pose she shows when she is low-spirited. I have increased her meal place to five places. - 096
0872 That is to say, in front of the television, in front of the computer, on the bed, in front of Ann's cage and in front of the entrance of the veranda. I doubled the number of apples, and put them on the meal places. - 097
0873 Saturday, May 15, 2004 Today, before she got up, I decided to prepare the broccoli, the apple, the tomato, the orange, and all of them. I was looking at her current state. And, if food is a little small, I thought that she is able to eat it. So, I made food smaller by the mixer. When I gave it to her, she began to eat. - 098
0874 She is waiting for me on the table when I go to the kitchen. She was able to eat food today. I confirmed that she was able to drink water several times. At last, she could drink water and eat food, as usual. - 099
0875 However, a day ended with only the search for food, and supply of the water by the apple, like yesterday. In the afternoon, she suddenly started bathing. In a hurry, I did her treatment after her taking a bath. - 100
0876 Only when she gets up in the morning, and only when she goes to sleep in the evening, she can utter voice. Anyway, when she was not able to utter voice before, it took one week until she recovered. Considering it, it is important to keep watching her. - 101
0877 Though miserable, What I can do now is to prepare her environment and to watch her carefully. After all, it is dependent on the power in which she lives. - 102
0878 I fortunately feel her powerful vitality. Although she has experienced the dangerous state several times until now, she had a powerful appetite at any times. - 103
0879 This is the reason why she is superb. She can be together with me for more than five years by this appetite. I can live because she is with me. I have to bear up. Never say die! - 104
0880 Tuesday, May 18, 2004 She can hardly utter voice today. She ate more food and more often drank water than yesterday. Her excrement is approaching the ordinary state. - 105
0881 I can sometimes watch the sight of her which is taking a rest on my body, as usual. I think that it is because she is able to eat more food than before. - 106
0882 However, the state of her throat has not improved. When she is eating, there is food by which she cannot pass her throat according to the kind. - 107
0883 Though she sometimes drinks water, she doesn't give up replenishing water from the apple. Because she had tried to bathe immediately before sleeping today, I made it stop. - 108
0884 Although I thought that she is pitiful, until she can utter voice, until she gets well from a cold, I decided not to put the receptacle of bath. About 15 minutes, in the afternoon today, I looked for the score of the chorus in the north room. - 109
0885 Though after that I returned to the south room, she was not in the room although I looked for the inside of the room. Although I looked for her, calling her name, I was not able to find her anywhere. - 110
0886 She had disappeared before. Similarly, she caught a cold and was not able to utter voice like this time. It is the second time, including this time. - 111
0887 No matter how I look for her, I cannot find her. Ten minutes later, I could find she is on the back side of audio. I was relieved a little. Today similarly, she was together with me all day long. - 112
0888 Though she was not able to utter voice, because she was comparatively well, I left her to the room and was not in the room for about 15 minutes. It was not good. - 113
0889 She is completely relying on me due to sickness. I understood that she had looked for me all over the room because I am not in the room. She has never been on the back side of audio until now. - 114
0890 I have really gotten depressed today. The inside of my head became empty when I thought that she is not with me. However, when I was running on the Abukuma river bicycle road by bicycle in the evening, I thought as follows. - 115
0891 "To become well, Chie eats food, drinks water and eats the apple, and she is relying on me by her whole body. For that reason, I also must do my best for her." - 116
0892 When I thought like that, I was able to remove the ominous presentiment. "God still makes us be together." After I came home from shopping, I finished supper. And I immediately began to make her food of tomorrow. The fight with the sickness really begins from tomorrow. - 117
0893 Thursday, May 20, 2004 From the 18th of this month, I could not feel strength of power in her body when she goes to bed. When I have put her into the cage before she goes to bed, I could not feel power in her body who is in my hand. Because I had felt power in her body every day up to now, I feel very uneasy now. - 118
0894 I confirmed the method of treating a sick small bird by Internet yesterday. It was written as follows. "When a small bird has a fever due to a cold, the suitable temperature of the room is 28˚C. - 119
0895 When the small bird eats food, the probability of recovery is high." Though I went to the bird shop of the shopping center which is near my house on foot when light rain is falling in the evening, the mealworms were sold out. - 120
0896 Therefore, I hurried to another shop while praying. I was able to obtain the mealworms in that shop. Fortunately, I was able to obtain the small mealworms. I thanked God. Because I thought that I am able to make her get physical strength only by this method. - 121
0897 However, I made her liver bad because of this mealworm. She lost two fingers of her right leg. I must not forget that fact. This morning, I have put her in the cage for keeping her warm and for her health. The temperature in the cage is about 28˚C. - 123
0898 As if it was a lie that she was walking about all over the room until yesterday, she keeps still today. To eat food and to drink water, she sometimes moves up and down. However, the frequency is low. Today, she ate only the mealworms and survived like yesterday. - 124
0899 I felt so. Before sleeping, she closed eyes and her chest was moving furiously. Though I felt that she is in dangerous state, I confirmed she had drunk water, I darkened the room, transferred her from the big cage to the small cage and have put her to sleep as usual. - 125
0900 I was worried that she was low-spirited before sleeping. She is struggling with illness desperately now. We are not permitted to be defeated. We fight together. We win absolutely. I will sleep today in preparation for tomorrow at ten o'clock. - 126
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